Original Monologue Monologue
|Original Monologue by Roy Williams Jr.|
Hea. Where do I go from here? What is my purpose on this vessel we call Earth... Lord? I'm not doing anything with my life. I've been stuck at this damn community college for three years. I still don't know what I am majoring in. My parents are on verge of kicking me out. My only choice is the military life. To be honest I'm scared to join the military; that shit is not for me.
My girlfriend cheated on me. She was the only friend I had left. Everyone I knew is in the military or gone off to college somewhere. You know, I can't stand working at McDonald's for minimum wage. I can barely afford to still make it in school. I have no life. What am I going to do when my parents kick me out? [Slight laugh] You know what, I still can't believe Jen cheated on me. Three damn years I was with her... 3 years! I bought here everything she ever asked for. She doesn't realize she was all I really had left.
My parents think nothing of me. You know what [pause] it's true. I am nothing; I am a 21-year-old nothing. There is no point of me living anymore. There is nothing left inside of me to motivate further existence. Lord, if had a say so, I wouldn't be here on this planet. I wouldn't have given my self the supposedly precious gift of life. You know I tried Lord, but I can no longer try anymore. You see there is nothing... absolutely nothing else. What did you bless me with? Oh yeah, $5.35 an hour at the age of 21. I don't have the brains, singing, or acting ability like others. You didn't bless me with anything of that nature. Instead, you gave me a girlfriend of 3 years to cheat on me. I don't totally blame you Lord. [Slight laugh] That damn Jen. It's ok, it's all right fortunate enough for me, someone invented guns. Sorry nothing worked out here, but I tried, maybe in the next life. What goes around comes around Jen. [Bang]